Sir Bradley Wiggins has alleged he was groomed by a coach at the age of 13. The five-time Olympic gold medallist and 2012 Tour de France champion said he "buried it" as an adult.
Wiggins made the comment during an interview with Men's Health UK magazine, of which he is this month's cover star, and alleged he was a teenager when he was "groomed by a coach".
"I was groomed by a coach when I was younger – I was about 13 – and I never fully accepted that... It all impacted me as an adult… I buried it," he said.
Wiggins also outlined problems at home, alleging a violent stepfather contributed to him becoming a "loner" during his teenage years.
"My stepfather was quite violent to me," The 41 year old continued. "He used to call me a faggot for wearing Lycra and stuff, so I didn’t think I could tell him. I was such a loner… I just wanted to get out of the environment. I became so insular. I was quite a strange teenager in many ways and I think the drive on the bike stemmed from adversity."
The former Team Sky rider details how his quest to become the first British person to win the Tour de France, coupled with the subsequent success of winning the yellow jersey and Olympic gold in London, signalled the end of his enjoyment for life as a professional cyclist.
"It was probably the unhappiest period of my life," Wiggins concluded."Everything I did was about winning for other people, and the pressures that came with being the first British winner of the Tour."
On coping with his depression now, Wiggins explained: "I have to have routine.
"Training every day, it’s important. Not drinking too much… With my depression, if I’m not looking after myself it manifests more like a mania. I always thought of depression as taking you to a dark room in a stoop. I try to be funnier and end up being shocking and contentious.
"The pathway for me is taking control of what I want to do. For the first time in five years, whether or not I have a love/hate relationship with cycling, I accept the love. I’m not going to pull back from it, not do other stuff."
Wiggins also addressed his relationships with Sir Dave Brailsford and Chris Froome at Sky during a period when he "adopted a kind of veil – a sort of rock star veil" to cope with the "fame and adulation that came with the success" of 2012.
"He’s [Brailsford] like a big brother, just maybe one I don’t talk to all the time. But you couldn’t go through all the success we had – British Cycling, Team Sky – without a bond," Wiggins said.
"He probably expected me to be more like him. My problem was there was a human being inside me. Dave is a big c**t, a proper c**t, and I say that as a term of endearment because to be successful you have to be. I was at times, Chris Froome was. You have to be ruthless and c**tish. It’s not nice, and you know you’re doing it, but you know if you take your foot off the gas, you’re going to pay a price."
Wiggins, who in 2019 outlined a plan to study to become a social worker, has often spoken candidly about his career post-retirement, and last summer admitted his "rock star" persona was a front to hide insecurity.
"I was insecure in many ways as an athlete really," he said. "I had a veil and fronted as a bit of a rock star and things like that. I played the guitar – that was all just a front really. It wasn’t really me – it was just a veil that I hid behind. As I got famous after 2012 I almost played the character more. That’s all gone now. I feel so separated from the athlete or from the person I was when I was an athlete.
"You’re expected to be so mentally strong when you’re an athlete – people say – ‘oh you won the Tour de France, you must be so mentally strong’. But it doesn’t correlate to normal life. I think a lot of elite athletes are insecure – I was very insecure off the bike – constantly questioning myself, constantly doubting myself."
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"I was groomed by a coach when I was younger – I was about 13 – and I never fully accepted that... It all impacted me as an adult… I buried it,"
I won't comment on the so obviously wrong behavior, or the effect on his mentl health etc. Rather I will take one little bit out of this.
If you aren't going to name and report to the police for investigation, then saying this little bit i just feel is harmful, there are now a whole number of people who have been accused by association and their friends and colleagues will be looking at them differently today. You know the proud guy in the office with Bradleys pic on the wall from the days when he used to volunteer and coached him as a kid an mentions it at every opportunity.
I believe that it's remarkably difficult to contact the police about inappropriate behaviour without also being accused of lying etc. If Bradley starts the conversation, then it becomes easier for other victims to come to terms with it and maybe feel brave enough to report it to the police. It's better that the truth comes out even if it does make some colleagues and friends feel uncomfortable and the blame for that discomfort should be on the perpetrators, not the victims.
Like HP said - no right answers because a) we're slowly realising that "stranger danger" is the exception to the norm of "family and friends" b) ... and we're starting to get evidence for the scale of childhood abuse and it is much more common than was commonly accepted c) ... and it's still something where the adults have the power and addressing this is hard. Adult victims of rape and sexual assault have problems getting anything to happen.
...but the majority of adults are not abusers and this is a very "sticky" label with possibly life-changing consequences for those accused.
I think it's interesting hearing Wiggins say how you have to be a bit of a c*** to succeed. I think that's maybe the way some people have to be, but I know Kye Whyte for example and that's not true for him.
Wiggins' latest revelation maybe explains his behaviour following the TdF win though. He did come in for some criticism at that time.
A lot of people have baggage they've hidden very deeply. It sounds like Wiggins is on the way with regard to coming to terms with his past, so that's a positive to take away from this.
Bear in mind that he's really only talking about himself.
Most pro athletes will admit that it's a selfish lifestyle, I've certainly seen any number of WorldTour riders say that you have to be so focussed and selfish. But that doesn't mean you have to be a c**t. And when he mentions Dave B and Froome, he's looking at them through his own eyes so I'd not take that part at face value.
In fact, he has contradicted himself plenty of times so I'd not rush to assume that he means what I think he means. It's just one man's life, good and bad. I wonder why he wants to continue talking to the media about it.
I think he's probably still working things through in his own mind most likely.