The Slovenian was given a 10 month doping ban for the use of methylhexaneamine last season, but says the reason for this is due to the stimulant being an ingredient in a meal replacement product he took while battling bulimia. He says on his website: "The whole reason I took that meal replacement was, because it was the only thing I could keep in. In that period there wasn't a day I wouldn't cry before going out for a ride. I was desperate, and everything was dark to me. The thing I loved, I dedicated whole life to, was being taken away from me.
"I knew I had to give my body at least something, to function. And that was that meal replacement, oats, animal protein, natural flavours....and undisclosed methylhexaneamine unfortunately.
"The UCI promised their medical department would contact me. IT NEVER HAPPENED.
"They knew we have a problem, the problem that is ruining people's lives, careers, but they don't want to do anything about it...nada, zero
Well, the sock height seems to be more important, right?"
He goes on to say cycling has a serious problem with eating disorders and mental health: "Right, this shouldn't be just about me, It should be about others as well. I didn't write this piece to get attention, or others feeling sorry for me. I'm doing ok, most of the time, not great, but still, good enough.
"I wrote this to let everybody know, from hypocrites to people working in cycling, we have a problem. Whether you like it or not, it shouldn't be such a taboo topic. Someone who fractures a bone and carries on, is seen as a hero, but somebody struggling for months, years, with mental issues, eating disorders, addiction, is WEAK?
"Here, I exposed myself, and even now, writing this, it bring tears on my eyes. It shouldn't be like this. This is fixable. I'm not the right person for help, but just a talk with someone who's been through it will help immensely. The load that comes off your chest is indescribable."
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brooksby, the sock is the last peice of clothing that I have yet to make cycling specific, though I do generally ride around in M+S boxers, saving the chamois liners for the longer rides, I wear high merino (which is after all the cyclists wool) content hiking socks from Bridgedale. Summer, spring/autumn and winter weights. Bit pricey, but 15% off Cotswold, and they do last many years. I wash them either with my bike wear, cold sythetic cycle with delicate washing liquid or with my merino tops, wool wash with delicate washing liquid, and no fabric softener. They are very good quality.
The elastic at the tops lasts, though I don't wear them pulled up lots, and the heel eventually wears through.
I'm not on all that social media gubbins.
I find socks to be problematic.
I had a set of Pearl Izumi coolmax type short socks (go about two inches above the ankle) - I bought several pairs a couple of years ago, and they've finally started developing holes.
On every other pair of cycling-specific socks I've tried, and every pair of 'civilian' socks, the elastic bit at the top shrinks in the wash so that they are really very uncomfortable.
Surely there are socks out there which don't? I mean, a pair of cheap Halfords-own-brand ones shrunk after a single wash! And even Endura ones don't seem to last more than a handful of washes before I'd only choose to wear them as a last resort.
Bjorgs accident was a freak event and couldn't be forseen. Even on a closed circuit a freak accident could happen. There's a death during the Isle of Man TT every year, but riders sign on every year knowing the risks. Cycling would be boring on motor racing circuits, and wouldn't get any TV coverage. We love the spectacle of the big races, and so do the riders, otherwise they wouldn't race. The only viable option will be virtual racing, but riders could still suffer from heart attacks, and where would the atmosphere come from. You cannot account for freak accidents, same as riding for pleasure, anything could happen, it's just life.
We watched the Simoncelli crash live, then several times before we had realised how bad it was. Damn those PVRs. Rossi seemed to lose some of his edge after it. Understandable.
I watched the film 'The Tour: The Legend of the Race' the other day.. it had footage of Tim Simpson collapsing as well as Fabio Casartelli on the ground as per he race coverage. I must say those images especially poor Fabio Casartelli will stay with me for a while. This sport of ours is dangerous and shocking but I wouldn't want it to change.
It seems to me that RBWM are making their restrictions on Velolife deliberately ambiguous so they can shut it down more easily. They can argue with their own definitions of 'organised' and 'meet' and apply it to pretty much any group of cyclists that numbers more than 4 or 5.
I think they;re just making it up as they go along. Making the occupier of premises responsible for the legal actions of third parties is a bit of a stretch by anyone's standards....
I tried emailing Duncan Sharkey (as per the letter from RBWM) but it turns out he's gone on holiday. I bet he's going to have a fun inbox to come back to...
Is it worth it?
Yes, I'd guess so given the rates of mortality people face for everyday things.
As a follower of motorsport (and more involved at one point) I've seen it unfold on TV and actually live and after a period of reflection by those involved, the sport goes on. Sometimes it's even been 14 year old kids which does make you question the sanity of it all.
The thing is, those doing it want to do it and given the mindset of pros it would literally have to be like being at the Somme before people would stop. Look at the IOM TT and the road race lot. Everyone knows the risks. I remember thinking that could be it for Valentino Rossi when he ran his best racing mate, Simoncelli, over. It would have been for me but these guys like most pros at most sports are something else mentally. Not cold, but something else.
I've seen so many deaths "live" in 40-odd years of watching motorsport. They live with you, for me particularly Greg Moore on four wheels and Daijiro Kato on two. I was fortunate to miss Simoncelli at Sepang & Shoya at Misano.
I guess partly the difference is that there's bugger all money in cycling. I know that those guys would have raced and knowingly risked their lives for buttons, as do the TT riders, but the point is that the rewards are there, particularly in comparison to cycling. It's always harder when it's a talented young rider/driver I think - that feeling of what might have been. It's been a year of near misses up to now, and hopefully Froome and Van Aert will come back just as strong.
Chapeau to the Edinburgh flood rider.
I find it amazing that some amateur races are held on roads open to traffic.
I see this sometimes in YouTube videos. I think the most recent one was some national time trial 24h championship.
The article doesn't say if some of these deaths are caused by this kind of traffic though.
All of the races that I do in the UK are on roads with a rolling partial closure. Went to France to race this year. Fully closed roads. Was absolute bliss!
Pretty sure the 24s have always been held on open roads?
Almost all TTs are going to be on open roads - there are many fewer issues of safety when riders are going one at a time.
Safety is improving and partial closures are getting better as a result of the Accredited Marshalls Scheme - dne well it means the effect is similr to a full closure - I'll be out with my lollipop on Saturday am.....
I think it is still to be determined if Bjorn died of the crash, or had a heart attack on the bike and then crashed like Goolaerts at Paris Roubaix last year. However just going on stories on this site over the last year, there was the one crash involving a public vehicle that I remember where the cyclists took a wrong turn on the course in some continental race but most have been either medical issue or furniture ones. But for the amount of actual races around the world, the deaths (although still too high for sports) are probably statiscally lower then others.
The team put out a statement this morning giving some details. The accident caused a "big liver laceration" resulting in "massive internal hemorrhage" and subsequent cardiac arrest.
He needed a miracle, and it didn't arrive.
Oosh.. looks like a feisty blog today!
Massive props for that Scottish cyclist, he's my hero of the day.